This has definitely been one of the best summers of my life. And I’m not even sad that it’s almost over cuz I’m actually really looking forward to this school year, for so many different reasons. I remember when I was younger, teachers and other adults would always tell me that I’m the type of person that things don’t really work out for until college but then things get a lot better. It’s kinda scary how accurate they were.
Lying on my couch listening to my custom playlist on my surround sound and thinking about how amazing the next few weeks are going to be. So relaxed and incredibly excited :)
I was really nervous about talking to her on the phone so I said I’d be willing to talk for like 5 minutes. We ended up on the phone for three and a half hours :)
So I finally have all of my school stuff and all of my apartment stuff all figured out and finished. Now I just have to use these next two weeks or so to get ready and once I’m ready I can move out whenever. And on top of all this, things are going incredibly well with my lady friend. Things definitely seem to be going my way!
It’s kinda surreal actually. It’s amazing how quickly things can change when you truly dedicate yourself to self-improvement.
I can’t help but feel incredibly lucky right now… So happy :)
She’s made me smile more in the past few weeks than I could have ever imagined :) Can’t wait to see her tomorrow!
I check my messages surprisingly often for someone who never gets messages.
Am I the only one that frequently wakes up from naps feeling panicked for no apparent reason?
If you can go a whole day without wearing pants you know it’s gonna be a good day.
Everything is falling into place and I’m incredibly happy because there are so many small things that could’ve gone horribly wrong. Can’t wait for fall!
This is the first time that I feel like I’ve acted even remotely like a normal person when having a crush on someone. I feel like I’ve actually been able to tell the difference between what’s appropriate to say and what I should either not bring up or wait until later to ask. And the couple times I have said something stupid, she’s been understanding and helped me try to learn instead of putting me down for it. But I actually feel comfortable waiting and I’m not trying to rush anything and everything is going as well as I could hope for. I just feel like I’m finally ready and mature enough for a relationship. I think my anxiety held me back before and messed with my thought process, making me say stupid things and over think things way too much. And now that I’ve overcome a lot of my anxiety issues I feel like I can do all of the things that I couldn’t do before. I still have issues and it still affects me obviously but I feel genuinely happy and that’s an accomplishment for me I guess. Sorry for the long post, just had all this on my mind and wanted to put it somewhere!
Damn, shits getting serious tonight haha