So I thought that if I got rejected by Western then I would become incredibly depressed. And for maybe half an hour, I was. But then I realized that I need to turn this into an opportunity to learn. I’m no longer a child or a teenager, I can’t afford to feel shitty about stuff like this and let things get to me. I have to take charge and learn from experiences like these. So today I applied for 4 jobs, and planned my schedule for Fall quarter at SSCC to try to retake some classes to improve my GPA (if successful this quarter and fall quarter, I can improve my 2.92 all the way up to a 3.73, and this is certainly a decent possibility). Despite what I thought would be a setback, I truly think my life took a step in a positive direction today.
I wish I was talented enough at something to be able to vent my frustration into art.
Didn’t get into Western. This is shitty.
I think I’m starting to develop trust issues. And that’s not good.
Why is this not the first time that someone I care about decides to just ignore the fact that I even exist without even telling me why? Am I not even worth an explanation? I don’t know whether to be fucking pissed, or incredibly depressed. So I’m just going to do both for awhile.
I’m hoping something will cheer me up soon. I need to be better so I can focus more on school :/