I hate how stupid I become when I have a crush on someone.
I hate it when I let my anxiety stop me from doing things I actually really wanna do :/
Moving is a pretty frustrating and complicated process, but holy shit I’m really looking forward to moving in and starting classes and stuff. I feel like all of this is going to allow me to transform myself into the person that I’ve been trying to be for the past few years.
Just because a fear isn’t rational doesn’t mean it’s not valid.
Around this time last year, I got my rejection letter from Western Washington University, the only school I had applied to. I was extremely embarrassed, frustrated and just generally depressed. Then, I decided to learn from my previous mistakes and start actually putting in the effort to succeed. From that point on I’ve gotten almost all 4.0s, increased my GPA by a full point, got a job, and within the past few weeks I was accepted into both of the universities I applied to. I might still not try quite as hard as I should, and I certainly still have a ton of work to do, but I think my change in attitude has certainly paid off. I’m not proud of myself very often, but this is one of those times.
I always thought that headphones and closed eyes were a universal sign meaning don’t bother me but apparently no one at my school is capable of recognizing simple social cues.
It’d be fine if they actually wanted to talk to me, I don’t mind meeting new people. But why would you both come and sit next to me to gossip to each other when there are plenty of empty tables you could sit at?